A friend died yesterday.
Yes, I long to deal with it with food.
No, I'm not.
But I'm allowing myself a few days to not focus so intently on "eating right." I'm being less stringent about meal times and more flexible about what I eat. I will not overeat to numb myself. I will not eat cookies instead of crying. But if all I want for "lunch" is some potato chips and a piece of cheese...well, right now, that's okay.
I am not yet at an emotional place with food where I can handle this any better.